Online meeting anxiety

4 minutes into the meeting and
I feel knots twisting in my stomach
It’s more than butterflies churning around

There is increasing acid influx flood my system
I lost my train of thoughts
I am alert to judgment

My throat is dried
so, I pour some water
It helps, for a while

Then I realize, the agenda has changed
There’s another urgent coming
Because nowadays, urgency is piling up
so is the online meeting to respond it

We plan for follow up actions
and the meeting drag its pace
to the many familiar possibilities

We can only hope for the best
Because life looks hopeless

Nikn