Menstruation

I looked up at the Wikipedia to find its meaning. Menstruation or known as a period is the regular discharge of blood and mucosal tissue from the inner lining of the uterus through the vagina. The menstrual cycle is characterized by the rise and fall of hormones, is triggered by falling progesterone levels, and is a sign that pregnancy has not occurred. Why am I curious to know the technical meaning? Because I feel my body is cooking.

So, it’s been quite a while that I know that I experience perimenopause. Probably 4 years. There were some signs but most notably was menstruation. The volume and duration were less every month. But in the last 4 months, the duration is longer. The volume was not much but longer. There was not much menstrual pain or constraction. I asked myself, is it the irregular discharge before finally off?

I am curious about my own body. Like, what are you doing? So yes, I am confused of my own body. It concerns me that I know little about it. I read about perimenopause and it prepared me a bit. I think it’s more about the estrangment feeling with my own body. How do I make out of it?

I am embracing the changes of my body cycle. Well, it’s important to respect it. And the weather, with the climate crisis ongoing, is not helpful. Well, it makes worse. I pushed hard for an AC installed in working area. In late April, raining is still falling almost everyday in Bogor but the temperature is hot. There has been forecast that in May the weather will get hotter and getting water will be more difficult. My late 40s body is screaming.